Mall Music EP

by Mesita

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Hey guys, I had to do a hard reset. While the process of recording these songs definitely helped me find my bearings, track by track I realized they weren't hitting the mark I set for the album. I gotta believe in this music, and as much as I tried on it, this stuff wasn't it. I hate to hand-off my frustrations to you guys waiting for the album, but these old threads gotta be cut. So here's the Mall Music EP, a way to let go of the junk and start over blank slate, clean the hard drive, build something better from the ground up.

Aiming for 'Sevenths' to be out this early summer. Until then, thank you again for all your support and for bearing with me. I'm not planning on going away any time soon.

(Also, putting in the order for the Here's To Nowhere kickstarter vinyl (finally) so sorry for the delay on that (All my fault) Those should ship out early summer as well)

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released March 15, 2017

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Track Name: Compliments
the compliments they leave you when they're leaving
though i had a really nice time with you
afraid i must be leaving
and i know i said i loved you
but i'm leaving
and you have been so great
i want you to know how much you have meant
you're an incredible guy
but i am growing older and do not wish to be
wasting any more of my precious time
i know i said i loved you
now i'm leaving
you were building me a prison
i'm suffocating
you think i'm nearly perfect
and that's not what i am needing
why can't you call me on my bullshit
until now that i am leaving
and you have been so great
i want you to know how much you have meant
you're an incredible guy
but i am growing older and do not wish to be wasting
any more of my precious time
our marching down 5th with hands held
mourning for orlando was such a meaningful incredible night
and you showed me a love i've never felt quite deserving of
have some things you can't simply solve in my life
and i know i said i loved you
now i'm leaving
Track Name: Spiraling
listen to your thoughts when they come around
don't drown em out
do you hear the sound of his heartbeat now
isn't it similar to the one you got
and had since your first day
through terror and heartache
be here to lift him up

but if you let him down will he go tumbling
tumbling into the ground
if you give him up to return stumbling
to all that's held him down
resentment is a cold you cannot sleep away
with loveless companions
and keeping alone is all he was looking for
when you spiraled into his way

can you see the threads of his heartache
sewn in every mistake
he makes for good or want or spite
you're a sigh he tries to swallow as his companion
a slow-witted cheapskate
bad teeth and a headache
what if he's had enough

but if he lets you down will you go tumbling
tumbling into the ground
if he gives you up to return stumbling
to all that's held you down
resentment is a cold you cannot sleep away
with loveless companions
and keeping alone is all you were looking for
when he spiraled into your way
Track Name: Spirits
here's my number
i can't wait to meet
could you finally be someone who's worth seeing
though a hard thing to believe with all my history has proven
but all our conversation makes me hope you could be different
oh my god
you're beautiful
have i found myself the one that i've been needing
with the moonlight on your tattoos dancing round so fascinating
and the shaping of your shoulderblades is so intoxicating
yeah you're making me high on you
and i can't wait to connect to your spirit

you're so creative
you're so unique
and to think that i'm the one that you're in love with
(i'm yours)
but a change in the look on your face
suggests you might be feeling different
tell me if there something more that i can give to help improve it
you're starting to

become distant
aren't i the same one that you said you fell in love with
and the gifts i give you all seem to go unreciprocated
(but i count my blessings)
cause the days of feeling alone and miserable i'm fucking through it
so i put on my smile for you
but i can't seem to connect to your spirit

(what am i worth to you)

the liberties you take, you're treating me like shit
are you seeing me just cuz i am convenient
and that loud little way you cackle has become a bit too grating
and i'm sick of feigning interest in every dull word you're saying
i'm not gonna let you know but i've been thinking about leaving
but if you ever dumped me oh my god i'd be so devastated
oh i am so through with you
but i can't seem to disconnect from your spirit
Track Name: Ritual
i don't know what the hell you are
but i'm feeling every word
and the way you stumble
is close to God
in your intricate flaws
how did i ever come to find
a lover like you
caught in a ritual
since you came into my world
and my plot is a different one
since you came into my world
where'd i find your type
disconnect your history
steady falling for your mind
i love the way you think
drunken cross the night bridge we go
your hand so warm to hold
caught in a ritual
since you came into my world
and my plot is a different one
since you came into my world
this can't be love i'm feeling no way
you could be the one for me oh boy
and it's taking me somewhere i never quite thought i could go
and i don't think i've ever really felt this way before
Track Name: Intimacy
your love is so constricting
you're only here to say you are
oh you poor thing
forget this number.
your love is so invasive
a danger to my basis
a beige speck among my hundreds
and oh you meant nothing
your presence is exhausting
i'm slaying. you're not worth it.
i'm leaving without warning
so move on.
i won't fall in love.
you were nothing. you did nothing.
you meant nothing. we meant nothing.
this meant nothing. you're not worth it.
my persona in which i'm drowning
you did nothing. you are nothing.
we are nothing. am i convincing
this meant nothing. this meant nothing.
you meant nothing. you meant nothing.
you mean nothing
Track Name: All Out In The Open
it's something magical
i don't what you are
a bold and sudden force
it's something new to me
it's all the greatest thing
not used to company anyway
i think i'm losing my mind
all out in the open
shackled to you
i think i'm losing my mind
all out in the open
what do i do

there's nothing quite as nice
holding someone you like
i used to sleep at night
i used to sleep alone
hated not being known
but did i really though, oh no
i think i'm losing my mind
all out in the open
shackled to you
i think i'm losing my mind
all out in the open
what do i do