Littleton

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released March 31, 2018

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Mesita Brooklyn, New York

Mesita is James Cooley, music from Colorado. Since 2008.

Twitter songs guy, indie music's cockroach, this gen's NYC folk hero

i make music for people

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Track Name: Wander
Bright light fades away
And the day is over
I'm just trying to have fun
I'm just trying to stay sober
But she's moving on
Night comes anyhow
I'm just trying to wake up
But there's something about it

Black cab pulls away
Ask me what I'm waving at
Out walking her dog
At three in the morning

Montana born one of three kids
Moved to Golden, Colorado
When she was younger
Married her high school sweetheart
Had three kids
Cared for her brother
Settled in Littleton
Just down the road
From lookout mountain
Coors and woods chapel

Brightest light fades away
Yeah I recognize the face
But there's something about it
Track Name: Yr Eyes
It's a cold sweat
Oh no
My desire will be my undoing
In flesh tones of corrupted blood
Dead branches of me and my lovers
My creator woes her creation
What innocence blanks generations
Discontinue my continuation
An extinction of me and my lovers
One to the left one to the right
Two demons on my shoulders keep me up at night
Generations left ungenerated
My desire will be my undoing
I've been thinking about it
I've been thinking about it
I've been thinking about the legacy I'm leaving
When it's stopped short it's unforgiving
Then I wonder why I'm even living
What hurt you so long, my bub? My bub, so long
Sweat cold sweat cold sweat cold sweat
My creator woes her creation
What innocence blanks generations
Discontinue my continuation
Silent spring for me and my lovers

And I know we ain't gonna meet in another life
See it in your eyes
I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your eyes that you're gonna die
Okay what am I
Saying okay what am I
But the son of such a saint who gave me her eyes
I put 'em both to waste
Cannot love or procreate
I say my God I'm so ashamed you gave me her eyes
Momma, I'm a waste

It's a false start
Oh no
What warmth could feel this cold
Family name no more
All my ancestors lived for
Afflictions and world wars
Whole plagues that wiped generations out
All they'd been surviving for
Cut short by me and my lovers

And I know we ain't gonna meet in another life
See it in your eyes
I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your eyes that you're gonna die
Okay what am I
Saying okay what am I
But the son of such a saint who gave me her eyes
I put 'em both to waste
Cannot love or procreate
I say my God I'm so ashamed you gave me her eyes
And I know we ain't gonna meet in another life
See it in your eyes
I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your eyes that you're gonna die
Okay what am I
Saying okay what am I
But the son of such a saint who gave me her eyes
I put 'em both to waste
Cannot love or procreate
I say my God I'm so ashamed you gave me her eyes

Why can't we see the sunrise in the morning
She leaves her only son behind in the morning
Why can't we see the sunrise in the morning
She leaves her only son behind in the morning
Track Name: Jeffco
Oh how the clouds they float
Over the conoco parking lot the day you went insane
Back home you're talking to God
Probably pulling strings for your children
With Grandma, you told me it was helpful to say
That everything would be fine, and that it was okay
It was something you learned when Papa passed away
A year in our new place October of '98

I hold your hand and say it's okay
You know I don't believe it
Track Name: Future
I wonder who we're gonna be
When we get out of here
And can go and live our lives
I wonder who we're gonna be
When we get out of here
And can go and live our lives
Red state mind of Littleton
The closet we're stuck in
Down the doors and run outside
I wonder what we're gonna be
When we get out of here
And can finally live our lives

Know it gets better
The pain temporary
We see our future
A new day is coming

I wonder who we're gonna be
When we get out of here
And can go and live our lives
I wonder who we're gonna be
When we get out of here
And can go and live our lives
Future's what we're waiting on
In our church parking lot
Where we go rehearse our lines
I wonder what we're gonna be
When we get out of here
And can finally live our lives

Know it gets better
The pain temporary
We see our future
A new day is coming
Our sense of purpose
The gray skies are blurring
May feel so helpless
But we're gonna change things
Track Name: Shrine
In the basement by the furnace
Is a place I go to find my shrine
Foreign players new objectives
An escape from all the noise outside
What is real but all this fiction
Find my place in polygonal life

And it feels so good I escape
All my worries in this world
Turn the power on and blue light
Illuminate the cold of concrete walls

In the basement by the furnace
Is a place I go to find my shrine
What is real but all this fiction
Find my place in polygonal life

And it feels so good I escape
All my worries in this world
Turn the power on and blue light
Illuminate the cold of concrete walls
There's a story for all of us
Adventure beyond the high school halls
And it feels so good I outgrow
All I've ever been to this world
Track Name: Bongo
Boy, you really screwed this one up
Now the only one you're looking for
Is God
Are you all alone
For the hell you were doing
When I was back home

Boy
You're so
You're so lost
You know you did me wrong
Mr. I'm incapable of love

What's in Portland now
I put my faith in you
Still you did me wrong
What's cruel, it seems to stick with you
Like the waiting room of an ICU

Boy
You're so
You're so lost
You know you did me wrong
Mr. I'm incapable
Boy
You're so
You're so lost
You know you did me wrong
Mr. I'm incapable of love

And I threw her copy
In the garbage with her blessing
No I'm not some wounded dog
You just leave on the side of the road
Bongos
There's a whole world out there
You can pretend to ignore
But the one you'll no longer know
Is ashes behind that door
That you closed
Track Name: Seven
Searching for a new beginning
I don't know what I have left to prove
A different kind of innocence
Correcting all the wrong that people do
I don't know what change is coming
A softer soul could make mine feel so new
What I need is new beginnings
Not a different version of you

So someone so someone
Come be my light in the morning
My light in the morning
Come be the springtime by an ocean
My lucky seven seven seven

Dialed back on all my trusting
Everyone I meet is so dull compared to you
Instead of getting lost in conversations
I'm stuck lacking in the patience I had with you
Searching for a new beginning
That could rival all I had back then with you
But every time I sense a new beginning
It always ends up right back here with you

So someone so someone
Come be my light in the morning
My light in the morning
Come be the springtime by an ocean
My lucky seven seven seven

No I don't like you, I just liked you
I don't want you, I just had you
I don't need you, I just needed you
I don't love you, I just loved you
Track Name: Voicemail
Got a magic device
Now I can hear your voice from miles away
And reach you
And it makes me feel so good to know you're safe
Was up waiting to hear from you
What a relief

Take care of my boy
Take care of my boy

Got a magic device
I wanna hear all about your day
And you know I wait up worried sick about you
I feel so much better
To know your safe

Take care of my boy
Take care of my boy

And I know you have to go and live your life
Track Name: (Interlude)
"Hey bub, it's me thanks for your message
Sorry I was just checking messages and it
And then I had yours so I think that's why it was acting weird
I've got my phone in rice so hopefully that will help
But anyway, go hawks have a great night tonight I hope you have fun
and I'm glad you've got your alarm set to check in
Can't wait to see you on Friday and I love you oodles
If I do get my phone up and running probably won't check it tonight
But if I do get it up and running I'll text ya
If not just call on the home phone
I love you, bye"
Track Name: Laniakea
My best bub
May you get all you want
And the city show you love you deserve
And a strong someone
Who won't run from your hurt
When the water turns to salt

I used to knock
On the door to wake you up
Late for the bus to school
This knock on your door
It isn't me anymore
But you still have to wake up

I raised you in the light of my love
I raised you in the light of my love
My bub
Track Name: Parlour
Have you been here before
Is there someone else you're trying to meet here
Am I standing in
As a stunt-double to look thru toward your ceiling
Whose eyes are you seeing
Whose figure are you fleeing
Only hug me when you're leaving
Can't feel what I'm feeling
Sat down in a parlour
A wall, not a mirror
A wall, not a mirror
Track Name: Civilian
I've been walking in circles in the back of my head
Can someone please tell me where I am
The whole world has shifted nothings where it had been
Can someone please hug me or hold my hand

I've been walking in circles in the back of my head
Can someone please tell me where I am
The whole world has shifted nothings where it had been
Can someone please hug me or hold my hand

An indictment call the lawyers
Storm the lobby leave no witness
Who's the victim who's the weakest
They'll be singing like a canary

I've been walking in circles in the back of my head
Can someone please tell me where I am

Need a checkup and a dentist
Need a jackpot for my treatment
To my lovers I am loveless
And I'm drinking to forget this
Lovely future with no witness
My devices block my vision
No survival no importance
And I'm singing like a canary

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