The Phoenix

by Mesita

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released 30 December 2014

Recorded in Littleton, Colorado.

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Track Name: Heard You're Happy
your world is made up
to be soft
you keep your distance
and soon enough
count the splinters
they're gone
they meant nothing to me
heard you're happy
that's great

you're treading water
on and on
you shut yourself in
keeping occupied
count the splinters
they're gone
they meant nothing to me
heard you're happy
that's great

count the splinters
they're gone
they meant nothing to me
heard you're happy
that's great
goodbye

i'm so happy for you (but i won't be at the wedding)
Track Name: Hostiles
why do you fear me
only for my walk of life
if we are so even
why does my living cross your line
and i don't know where i belong
but i am no hostile

a threat that i exhibit
how i was brought into my life
a clear and present danger
no good i do will change your mind
and i don't know where i belong
but i am no hostile

you're different
nothing personal
business as usual

but i am no hostile
Track Name: The Villain
you're an actor for an actor
performing for performers
something you do, i do
you get me there i'll help you out
you call and i'll come back around
something you do, i do
and all this time resting on your laurels
will all be for naught
are you seeing him professionally

i'm an actor for an actor
performing for performers
something you do, i do
count your blessings where they see em
show em how you're living
weaponize your happiness
and all this time poaching on a new front
for trading places on the stages
posing with the famous
act as if you're one of them
and turn into the villain
this is how you become the villain

an actor for an actor
cold shapeshifter
something you do, i do
you get me there i'll help you out
you call and i'll come back around
something you do, i do
use all your time to paint yourself the victim
strengthen up your branding
in bed with your connections
broadcasting your blessings
faking all your smiles
and turn into the villain

i don't mean to make you sad but i do
Track Name: Buena Park
your friends are not your therapists
and you know it's all your fault
but i can't seem to leave
well enough alone
or bring myself
to forget about it
up in buena park
doing well enough alone
but i can't forget about it, no

you let it turn you bitter
why don't you find someone else
but i can't seem to leave
well enough alone
or bring myself
to forget about it
up in buena park
doing well enough alone
but i can't forget about it, no

drunk dial friends
say i don't want to be friends
they'll call you if they need you
say they love you and then leave you
and i can't seem to leave
well enough alone
or bring myself
to forget about it
up in buena park
i only think about myself
lalalalalalalalala
Track Name: Built A Prison
he could be your volunteer
holding to your hand
he could be your halo
he could be your hero king
open up the gates
bring you on his journey
but you built a prison
and you threw yourself in it
don't you think you should have
let yourself go by now

he could be your special friend
out for sunday brunch
look cute in matching outfits
he could be your therapy
your bro and workout buddy
introduce him to your family
but you built a prison
and you threw yourself in it
don't you think you should have
let yourself go by now

open your heart to the world
lift your roots from the soil
quit living like whoever was here before
and careen down the line til you're off the rails
and never be heard from again
open your heart to the world
why live as just another nice couple next door
we could go take a boat and sail away
and never be heard from again

(lock it up)
Track Name: Astoria/Fallen
highs and lows
the first time you met to the altar pose
you know it will last your life
astoria has fallen tonight
we had all wished you well
alone in the city
building digital cities
films lining up your shelves
on a composite wood bookcase
you assembled yourself
wasn't what you wanted, right
searching out, grab the first dimwit you find

go find your peace of mind
and that love will keep you locked up for life
highs and lows
the first time you met to the altar pose
you know it will last your life
astoria has fallen tonight
no turning round and walking out
changing your mind
for the rest of your life

here you walk down the aisle now
two grooms on the cake
ready with your vows
you aren't getting any younger now
where have you been
where are you going
Track Name: Together
all our hope is gone
they got all we want
how can we keep it together
when it all falls short
when the thought still lingers on
how can we keep it together
when it all falls short
when all i know is wrong
i just don't care anymore

all our hope is gone
but the thought still lingers on
keep it together
when it all falls short
when all i know is wrong
how can we keep it together
when it all falls short
how can we keep it together
i just don't care anymore

don't stop now
they're waiting
for something
to latch onto
so wake up
they're waiting
Track Name: Matching Lovers
matching lovers cancelling each other out
is he really all you waited for
matching lovers cancelling each other out
is he really worth you giving up

you know
the dream is gone
it falls apart, it leaves you low
you wanted it
this is what you get
you know
the dream is gone
when who you want
has all you want
it hurts like hell
this is what you get

matching lovers cancelling each other out
is he really all you waited for
sure you feel a warmth and a steady weight
while your dreams slowly suffocate

you know
the dream is gone
it falls apart, it leaves you low
you wanted it
this is what you get
you know
the dream is gone
when who you want
has all you want
it hurts like hell
this is what you get

when who you want gets all you want
Track Name: Phoenix Deluxe
i can't take my own advice
holding out for nothing
waiting on the cardinal
empty of my own accord
frozen in the movement
if you loved me, it's not my fault
i fell into your embrace
i do not need you
i will do all that it takes for you
and leave you

silent in the breakaway
when you desire nothing
waiting on the cardinal
quit it with the wrecking ball
i'm leaving in the morning
if i loved you, it's not my fault
i fell into your embrace
i do not need you
i will do all that it takes for you
and leave you

i do
Track Name: An old throw-away from 2011
summertime
your place off the brooklyn crosstown line
a few white lies
your secret is mine
i did it all for you
but did nothing for you
and i do not blame you for
feeling nothing i felt for you
but i did it all for you

new york spring
laying on your bunk bed whimpering
i've felt this way
for a very long time
i'm a selfish brat
and thoughts of you
keep rising from the ashes
to the uptown track
and our final collide
i did it all for you
but did nothing for you
and i do not blame you for
feeling nothing i felt for you
but i did it all for you

no we were not meant to be together
i'm headed off to find somebody better